"I had a miscarriage in 1998 at seven weeks pregnant. I hadn’t planned to have children and actually thought I would never be able to have children due to previous surgery. It was only when I became pregnant that I realised I wanted children. I was devastated when I miscarried and it was very painful physically.

"The worst time was about two months later when I thought I was OK but suddenly fell apart. Looking back, I think this was because my sister, who was expecting twins at the time, became ill and I became obsessed with the thought that she may lose them as well. I ended up on medication for a few months, which I didn’t want to do.

"I was present at the birth of my sister’s twins on Christmas Eve and I had mixed feelings about this as well. Although I was very pleased, it also reminded me of the miscarriage.

"The other time I felt down was when the due date came round in April 1999. However, I did feel this was a turning point and I was much more positive after this.

"I am now pregnant and due in May. The early months were very worrying, especially as I had a couple of bleeds. Also, I have had a cone biopsy and was told there was a continued risk of miscarriage until half way through the pregnancy. So far everything is going well and has been worth the worry."

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